The writings of my life

When?

2008-06-28T08:25:00.000-07:00

We do what we can to get by

But it seems like nothing goes our way

We try harder and do more things to try to do better

But things go the other way

People say that things happen for a reason

When do those things happen for the good?

I don't understand how some people have all the luck

When is it our turn?

And I know some people have it worse than we do

But we still wonder when our lives will turn around for the better

If God could give us a sign and let us know which path to take

It would make things so much easier

I guess that's part of life and it's what we have to do: live and learn

It's just depressing feeling like you seem to go the wrong way

And you always wonder when it will go our way

Can someone tell me when?

Beautiful days

2008-06-17T12:50:00.000-07:00

What do I want to do when there is a beautiful day?

Run outside, take a walk, enjoy the beautiful day, and have fun with the kids.

There haven't been a lot of beautiful days lately

Rain and storms that cause depressing thoughts and being couped up

Today is one of the beautiful days though

Nice and warm with plenty of sunshine!

No more floods to wash our lands away

Just sunshine to dry them out and clean up the mess

We were lucky and don't have it so rough

But some were not so lucky and have a bigger mess

Let these beautiful days dry up all the rain

And put us all in better spirits

Am I invisible?

2008-05-13T08:51:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel as though I'm talking to myself

I talk and talk and talk, but I'm getting no answer

Can you hear me? Am I not talking loud enough?

Maybe it's just me or maybe it's just you

I do not know and sometimes feel as though I do not care

If you want to be that way that is your choice

I have tried to make things better

I can't do that by myself

You're not willing to make things better?

That's just fine that's your choice again

Just realize that you may have lost some family

That really cared for you

But I guess you have opened your arms to everyone else

Except for who you should have

It will be too late before you realize it

Then what do you plan on doing?

Possibly continuing to make me feel invisible

But I know that I am not and in the end you will realize that

Even if it means watching us walk away

And never looking back

So I never feel invisible again

The Mirror

2008-04-05T06:25:00.000-07:00

My life is but a mirrored wall

I see the reflection day in and day out

Not much difference is seen

If my life begins to break down, the mirror is shattered

Then there's a big mess to try and clean up

But picking up the pieces doesn't always make things better

Nor does it change what has happened

Each day there is a new mirror that appears

And the cycle begins again

Just goes to show that life isn't always perfect

But then again, who claimed it was?

Why fight?

2008-04-05T06:23:00.000-07:00

I sit here watching you sleep wondering why we had that fight

I can't change what has been said but Lord knows I wish I could

You are sleeping so peaceful even though I know you are stressed out

You have a lot on your mind and a lot of confusion in your life

I know I love you with my whole heart and I always will

I am happy with the family we have created together

I wish we hadn't upset each other the way we did

I love you and you love me and that's all that should matter

Our lives were not complete until we found each other again after so many years had gone by

I wish we wouldn't fight over things that aren't that big

It is usually just a miscommunication on both our parts

I know we have gotten through so many hard obtacles

We have learned not to yell anymore, but to talk everything out

If people would just open their eyes they would realize how great we are together

It doesn't matter to me what anyone else thinks of us

We were meant to be, and that's all that matters to me

So why fight them when we know we are right

And what we know is you and I were meant to be and will always be together the way it was written in our books

I don't know why

2008-04-05T06:15:00.000-07:00

This is a song *work in progress*, so it is a little sketchy. I have my guitar and will try to figure out a tune to go with it

I don't know why I can't get out of this mood
I'm troubled and torn and so confused
I don't know why I just can't break this feeling
It's just so hard for me to understand
I don't know why life's become so complicated
It's out of my hands for the answers
Maybe I ought to give up
Maybe I should just run away
Away from it all and hide
That doesn't solve anything
And if won't make things any better for me
I get so frustrated and confused
I don't know why but I do
I don't know why money has become so important
It's so hard to get ahead when you're broke
I don't know why people just don't seem to care
No one to listen when you need it
I don't know why I try and fall flat on my face
Guess that's the way I learn the best
I don't know why I cry when I'm overwhelmed
It's something that just happens to me
Some day things will get better
We live and we learn from our mistakes
That's what makes us stronger
So we can be happy when we succeed
I don't know why I try to do my best
It's not always the right way, but it's my way
To me it's worth it, and always should be
I will always do my best to succeed
And keep on trying for my best
It may take some time to get it right
But I know if I keep trying something will work
I don't know why I just can't explain it
It may not make sense to you
But it makes perfect sense to me
That's what's important
So I can keep trying
And finally make it
To see myself succeed

Alone

2008-04-05T06:10:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel as if I am alone in this world
So many things to do, so many decisions to make
Sometimes you get the advice you need
Sometimes you get shown the wrong path
Either way we are all alone in making decisions for ourselves
Sometimes it seems as though we are torn between two things
Which way do we turn, how do we make that decision
If only there would be a way to try one, then rewind time, try the other
But our lives don’t seem to be that way
One wrong decision could change our lives dramatically
Whether it be money, jobs, or places to live
What is the easiest way to decide on what to do?
Some say follow your heart or your gut instinct
You can get all the advice you think you need
But in the end you are still alone to make your decision

Why?

2008-04-05T05:58:00.000-07:00

I am hurting inside right now
Why do they say such things
They say "Don't jump to the gun"
I say "Practice what you preach"
Why would you say such hurtful things
I know that I am not a perfect person
No one in this world is perfect
I live my life for my family
Because they mean the world to me
Don't knock me down for that
Why would you say such hurtful things
When you say you don't want to cause problems
I don't believe that anymore
It's too late to go back and take anything back
The pain has already set in
And the damage has been done
I don't believe in holding grudges
But it will take a long time to heal from that
Why would you do such a horrible thing
Maybe facts need to be heard
Before you go and ruin a friendship

Memories

2008-03-26T07:53:00.000-07:00

Our lives begin with being born, living our lives, and then passing on in the end

With people who have passed on, we have only memories of them

At times you wish you could talk to that person about something only they would know

Whether it be important or not, you wish you could ask

When we are born we don't remember anything for about the first 2 to 4 years

Our first memories stick with us and we rarely forget

When we are living our lives, we make many memories

Some good memories, some bad, but we all have memories of something

Some of us will have long lives with many memories

Some will only have a short life, with a few memories

We all have at least one very special memory that will live with us forever

Memories make us who we are

When our time comes to pass on in the end

Our memories will go with us

And memories of us will always live on

When You're Here, You're Family

2008-03-25T14:18:00.000-07:00

We've all heard that commercial "When you're here, you're family"
That's how I feel when I'm at work
We've all laughed together or at each other
We've all cried together when someone's hurting
We all care about each other in some way
We may not all be related, but it's our second family
When something is wrong, we all worry
Waiting to hear that everything is going to be ok
That's one of the hardest things to do
We've all hung out at some point in time
Whether it's at work, our homes, or a night out on the town
Our children have also become friends
We have taught them what family really is
You don't have to be related to call them family
Especially when we've all worked together for so many years
We want everything to be ok and for you to be back
Part of our family is missing, without you here
We are all praying for you and ready to help
No matter what it takes, we are here for you
We love you and we want you back with us
Please get better, we will help you fight
Whatever you need, don't be afraid to ask
All we want is for our family to be complete
Just remember, when you're here, you're family
We love you

2008-03-25T14:05:00.000-07:00

You never really know what you've got, until it's gone
We take advantage of what we have and think it will be there forever
Good friends are hard to come by, and sometimes hard to be one
The people you think aren't really that good of friends
Sometimes surprise you and help you out, without you even asking
When they do something like that, it makes you realize some people deserve that chance to be your good friend
But sometimes you don't realize that until it's too late
I had a friend who helped me out, without me asking
I offered my services when she needed it in the future
But then it was too late, she passed away
Out of all the friends that I have, she was the only one who showed up to help me that day
I thanked her over and over again and told her how wonderful she was to help me out
That is one thing I have to remember her by now
She was there when I needed someone, and when no one else was there to help
It just really makes you realize how short life can be
And holding grudges isn't worth it
So for those friends or family members, realize how short life is
And stop holding grudges for dumb or no reason
Because you never realize what you have, until it's gone

Friends

2008-03-25T14:02:00.000-07:00

Many people pass through our lives
Some we notice as people we know
Others we just see once when paths are crossed
Many people you wouldn’t consider a best friend
Some are your best friends forever
A lot of people touch our hearts in one way or another
Sometimes you don’t realize that until it’s too late
On one particular day I had a friend that I served breakfast to every morning
She smiled and said, "Oh there’s my best friend!"
I looked around, and at once realized she meant me
I smiled and had a short conversation with her
She and I would always talk about many things
We had so many differences in our lives
She has lived longer and been through so many more things
It is interesting to talk to someone and really get to know what they have gone through in their lifetime
It doesn’t matter if you are older or younger
What matters is how you treat each other and enjoy each others company
Many people who are in nursing homes need a friend
Whether it be a friend to talk to or just sit next to they need a friend
Instead of thinking of them as "residents", think of them as your friend
People would be surprised at what they find out
And how different things were in different decades
I believe where I work, I can make a new friend every day
If I take one minute to sit down and just say hello
A best friend doesn’t have to be someone you "hang out" with
A best friend is there for you and you are there for your best friend
So stop for just one minute and say hello to someone
You never know how fascinating their lives have been
And maybe how fascinating your life is to them

Angels and Miracles...written for my father

2008-03-25T11:50:00.000-07:00

Angels make miracles happen for people all the time
Usually in a lifetime a person has at least one miracle performed on them
My father was a miracle in himself by healing others and helping others
He worked his whole life for God and with Him
He had many angels watching over him and helping him in many ways
He never complained of his illness, nor did he show his pain
He overcame so many battles with illness so many times
My mother always said it was his Norwegian blood
I always said he was a miracle man
The final miracle was my father meeting God
And becoming an angel to perform more miracles

Beginning my blogs

2008-03-25T11:00:00.000-07:00

I have many blogs written in myspace, but I have decided to make a blog page just for me! I am in the process of starting to write a book, so I will update that in here also. I love to write poetry and will share this with you. Thank you for taking the time to read my blogs!